Life Is Funny………..
And by funny I mean it can break your heart into so many pieces that it takes a dust pan to clean it all up. This is not a nice, sweet, clean post ya’ll . Actually far from it. My 89 year old dad took a fall in late August. At first I thought he’s 89 ……. he is certainly entitled. So after work I drove out to his house to actually check him out . Three weeks later ? I was still living there.
My Dad had a major stroke a few years after my Mama died. He was in the neuro trauma ICU for weeks and then spent 5+ months in a rehab facility. Before this fall he was living independently for almost 6 years. Every day he got a little weaker, ate a fraction of what was normal for him. My Aunt would look after him while I work 10+ hours a day. I couldn’t sleep more than a few hours each night , and I stopped eating all together.
Eventually we could not care for him at home and he agreed to being moved in to a nursing facility three weeks ago. That first week he was there I was out there every other day. At the end of that first week I got a phone call from the nursing facility……… a staff member had tested positive for COVID.
I honest to God thought I was going to faint. We haven’t see my dad since. 4 days after that, two more employees were positive. The last call I got was this Monday evening. The total now is 5 employees.
To say that I am depressed would be an upgrade for me. To say I am sad is a gross is a huge understatement . Trust me, I have been to the depths of despair before. I know what that looks like, tastes like and how it smells. Right now, today? It is much worse. My Dad is my best friend. He met my Mama when I was a 9 year old brat and an only child. This man chose to raise me as his own. Now you tell me what kinda man with two sons of his own takes on that ton of Sh!t???? He has been right by my side my entire life, every milestone , walked me down the aisle on my wedding g day, and was right by my side when we saw my Mama out of this world. That, all those things I just listed in my mind and hear are the very definition of a Dad.
So I told ya’ll all this to tell you one more thing:
If I’m spotty when it comes to blogging I apologize . I am trying to jerk a knot in my own rear end and soldier on. Right now I’m doing good to remember where my car keys are. Ya’ll all mean so much to me. We’ve become pretty close. Thank ya’ll for just being my friends❤️❤️❤️
Paige
Oh, I am so sorry. It is such an emotional thing to go through. Those people working there should be required to take the vaccine. Try to eat….anything.
Nancy thank you so much for you concern. I wouldn’t wish this on anybody. But if you have parents chances are you’ll have to do it.
I’m so sorry you are faced with these events, Paige, but, as we know, aging parents are a challenge so many of us have had to deal with in our lives. I’m cheered to know that your dad is such a good guy – every daughter deserves nothing less, so I’m glad you have had him in your life. I’m thinking of you both and wishing you comfort in the days ahead. We’ll be here whenever you’re able to return.
Oh Leslie your words are always a comfort to me. Thank you for them. I am so very grateful to have him as my Dad even though he didn’t have to be.
You and your Dad are in my prayers. I am so very sorry.
Thank you Stacy and I appreciate your kind words. We can use all the help we can get!
Praying for you and your Dad!
Carla you are so kind to say this. Praying for someone is a huge deal in my family and I don take it lightly.
Oh Paige, the best thing right now is to look after both yourself and your dad, as much as you can. I lost my mum at the end of March, after she spent 3 weeks in hospital as palliative. Nothing related to the virus, thank goodness. I understand how you feel because she lived with me for the last 5.5 years, after breaking one, then her second hip. It’s even worse for you because you can’t see him every day. As long as you can keep calling and getting updates from the staff, that will be a small comfort. Do not try to push through and keep acting like you need to keep up the blog. It can wait until you’re ready to come back. Sending you my best wishes.
Brigitte you are just precious . I am so sorry about you Mama and I appreciate every single kind word of yours. I have truly missed blogging and these last couple of post have been therapeutic . I think you will hear from me here sooner than later. You take care!